Look at you, my sunshiney friend.
I think of you often. You are here with me despite having left us nearly a decade ago. I miss your laugh, your gentle chats about life and I miss the way you could spin a positive web around any situation. I know you are never very far from me, even now.
Full of wonder, I try to understand what it is that set you apart. Made you different. Gave you the strength to be nothing but light in the world- despite hardship, setbacks, illness, loneliness and all the negativity life swirls around. You truly were a burst of rainbows on a gloomy day. In my completely unromanticized memories of our friendship you were comforting when you often could of used comfort, smiling despite worry and fear, and creating and building, without discouragement, even as others damaged and destroyed.
You had that magical thing. The thing that allowed you to see every challenge as temporary. Setbacks extraneous to your life. You filed them on the difficulty shelf, said pfft, dealt with them and they were over. You seemed to know more than anyone that a single problem would not ruin you. The blame game was not a part of you. Any time trouble came calling you were this first to point out that it was temporary and send it back to whence it came.
You found delight in every good thing. Tiny gains were celebrated with as much joy as a marathon's completion. Good luck and blessings were evidence to you of much more coming. Like a magnet for happiness, you fed on the laughter and joy. You let it permeate your whole person. You were forever reaching out when it would seem to be time to retreat. You were inclusive and welcoming. If I had to describe you to a person who didn't get to meet you I would say you were brave and enchanting. A warrior for calm positivity.
Most days, I feel you in my soul. Your impact on me which started so young has lasted through young adulthood, growing children, a few years of separation while you were abroad, your illness and death, and the sudden passing of my baby and the love of my life. You know, more than anyone, how I wish you were still here. How profound though, that your short life continues to make such an impact on me, your family, your friends, coworkers and all who knew you.
In no way do I think I could ever touch lives like you did, my friend. You did help me, shape me and sugar my worldview. Someday, I hope to be a little like you. It is impossible to be the quiet phenomenon that is you but even a little of you is the best thing the world can have, Susan. You made every bit of life better.
I think of you often. You are here with me despite having left us nearly a decade ago. I miss your laugh, your gentle chats about life and I miss the way you could spin a positive web around any situation. I know you are never very far from me, even now.
Full of wonder, I try to understand what it is that set you apart. Made you different. Gave you the strength to be nothing but light in the world- despite hardship, setbacks, illness, loneliness and all the negativity life swirls around. You truly were a burst of rainbows on a gloomy day. In my completely unromanticized memories of our friendship you were comforting when you often could of used comfort, smiling despite worry and fear, and creating and building, without discouragement, even as others damaged and destroyed.
You had that magical thing. The thing that allowed you to see every challenge as temporary. Setbacks extraneous to your life. You filed them on the difficulty shelf, said pfft, dealt with them and they were over. You seemed to know more than anyone that a single problem would not ruin you. The blame game was not a part of you. Any time trouble came calling you were this first to point out that it was temporary and send it back to whence it came.
You found delight in every good thing. Tiny gains were celebrated with as much joy as a marathon's completion. Good luck and blessings were evidence to you of much more coming. Like a magnet for happiness, you fed on the laughter and joy. You let it permeate your whole person. You were forever reaching out when it would seem to be time to retreat. You were inclusive and welcoming. If I had to describe you to a person who didn't get to meet you I would say you were brave and enchanting. A warrior for calm positivity.
Most days, I feel you in my soul. Your impact on me which started so young has lasted through young adulthood, growing children, a few years of separation while you were abroad, your illness and death, and the sudden passing of my baby and the love of my life. You know, more than anyone, how I wish you were still here. How profound though, that your short life continues to make such an impact on me, your family, your friends, coworkers and all who knew you.
In no way do I think I could ever touch lives like you did, my friend. You did help me, shape me and sugar my worldview. Someday, I hope to be a little like you. It is impossible to be the quiet phenomenon that is you but even a little of you is the best thing the world can have, Susan. You made every bit of life better.
